I don't know....

I want to be there. I want you to count on me. I want to not be here. I want for us to be able to be open and happy. I want for me to not go to Summer Seminar this year. I want for you not to sign your guard contract.  I want us to not have to pretend to be something we're not. I want us to be back together.  I want a lot of things. Not one of them has a chance of happening.